This semester I’ve been waking up before sunrise to attend some of my classes. It’s kind of nice, walking down the street to the train station while the sky slowly lights up. On the train I block out the school kids and read Norwegian Wood. I’m not very far in yet, but it’s a nice reward to myself for getting up in time. I like Taru, I think I would like to be his friend if he were real.
My days are long, I usually work during the evening and the sun sets while I’m in the office. My extended family have been here staying with us for the past few weeks but I don’t think I’ve had dinner with them more than five times. I want to change that but it’s hard, any downtime I have I want to collapse into bed.
Lately I feel really lucky to be where I am. I know I’m dramatic and get upset about trivial things but for the first time in a while I’m really content with how everything is. I had a wonderful winter break, I am enjoying my classes, I am seeing various friends on a regular basis, I’m trying not to let the little details get to me. I’ve done some crazy things that have surprised even myself, but I’m young and that opportunity to do stupid things will eventually come to a halt. So for now, I’m running with it.
In just under four months I am travelling alone for seven weeks. Sometimes I think I’m nervous but the thought mostly excites me. The danger of it all makes me want to prove that I can do it, and I know it’ll creep up on me and before I know it I will be on a plane to Buenos Aires.
So that is what has been going on with me. I know I’m not on tumblr much anymore. I’m sorry about that. I’ve been hanging out on this website since I was 15, and I’m almost 20 now, which is scary. I hope you all still enjoy what I post, I enjoy all of your virtual company immensely. It’s insane to think over 10,000 of you are following me and that occasionally I get a sweet message, totally more than I could ever ask for.